When the mind awakens from gratification in gratification with
impermanence it is an experience of discontent; for, any satisfaction
which fails to be permanent and lasting fails to be a gratifying
solution, And therein lies the conflict which cannot be solved by
putting the mind to sleep again in further search for gratification.
The experience of discontent is a pointer and a symptom which cannot
be set aside by avoidance and escape. For, the object of escape
being self-gratification, under whatever name and whatever subtlety
of sublimation it has always the 'self ito goal of search. The awakening
of the mind through discontent is a challenge to the understanding
and intelligence, «ut the mind, in memory and in fear, or
in hode and in desire, refuses to accept the challenge.
It will merely hide its pain by seeking relief elsewhere Then,
discontent is made into a lever to reach out beyond the limitations
of what is; and thereby it creates the illusions of satisfaction
which provide a temporary forgetfulness which puts the mind to sleep
again in its pursuit of security and continuity.
When discontent is seen, understood and experienced as an awakening
to what is, there will be no attempt at overcoming this discontent
for, when it in seen, understood and experienced as a symptom, it
will also be understood that the real problem causing the conflict
in mind is much deeper. Then there will be no escape or sublimation,
but a mere attention which is the beginning of awakening. Discontent
seeking to fill the vacuum of the -self then turns into awareness.
; and in that intelligent awakening the vacuum is seen as a vacuum.
This understanding 13 not a conflict, for there is no attempt at
filling, no search for escape.
All search is of 'self ; and in that understanding all search ceases;
and the awakening intelligence, seeing what is not distracted by
gratification, discontent and conflict.